new day

27 Apr

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todays breakfast. cheated a little last night with tortilla chips with cheese and salsa with my best friend, but an planning to be back on track today. got a lot of exercise yesterday too. same plan for today. run a few k, eat healthy. repeat for several days 🙂

Today – post mortem

27 Apr

Maybe it’s a bad idea to do a post mortem before the day is actually over with, but I’m proud of myself today. I think I did pretty well. I had my veggies and my apples with cashew butter.  And a caesar salad. And yogurt and bran and strawberries for breakfast. I spent a day vegetarian and I’m pretty sure it’s the only day of my life since I was eating solid food that I’ve done that. I’m a tad hungry now so I think I may fall back on some black beans and brown rice. Not the optimal before bed snack, bu the protein is pretty crucial.

Today I ran/walked with the dog a total of 4.2 km. It felt sooo good! I got that runner’s high back, where you start to feel the world fade around you. I can’t wait until I have less bits jiggling around me while I run. Right now it’s rather annoying how much of me shakes and wobbles when I move at speed. The dog loved it though. I think for once I finally tired him out. And when I got back I wasn’t hungry at all. It was a really nice change from the ordinary.

There was pizza for dinner at the house, and I felt myself caving thinking about how much I wanted a slice of that rich, filling pepperoni. Luckily for me, by the time I got up from napping it was all gone. A close dodge, because I’m sure I would have cheated. This has been really hard so far. Really, really hard. To be honest, I’m pretty amazed that I have lost as much weight as I have, because I’ve always struggled with challenges staying motivated over the long term. Not just with weight loss, but school, work, projects, creative pursuits. I find I’m always kind of making excuses, and it’s hard because I get frustrated when I’m imperfect or unsuccessful, but I often wake up in the mornings feeling tired, unmotivated, and generally out of it and melancholy. Not quite sure how to correct f

 

or that, it’s a feeling that’s more or less followed me for me entire life. The weight loss helps; I can feel increased energy and strength, but there are still too many days where I feel like my strength has been sapped out of me, and it’s hard to get out of bed. I don’t know what the fix is for that. I’m eating healthy, as you can see from my re

Another day

26 Apr

Well, I met some of my goals yesterday. But it turned out I should have added the goals:

1. reduce carbs

2, no fried foods

3. no pastas

gained about a pound and a half after making Viet style spring rolls and cha gio over vermicelli.

Am not exactly proud. But today will be different. Here is my meal plan for today.

1. Low cal ceasar salad

2. Brown Rice and black beans with chopped tomatos, onions, lettuce, and salsa

3. crudites – specifically celery, baby tomatoes, and carrots with hummus or ranch dressing

4. apple w/cashew butter

5. cucumber salad – chopped cucumbers tossed in sea salt and balsamic vinegar

 

Wish me luck sticking to it!

Lots of love,

Care

Couple weeks later…

25 Apr

So it’s been a couple of weeks since I’ve posted anything, and I’m not going to lie, I’ve been battling boredom, complacency and a lack of motivation. Rice, beans, and Frank’s Red are set out before me. I’ve been having difficulty staying motivated lately. Not just on the weight loss deal, but generally on everything. The work piles up which makes me want to do it even less, and so continues the cycle of procrastination. I’ve been wanting to do a lot of different things. Get my old webcomic up again, work on my writing, do game art for the video game I’ve been helping to develop, work on any of my incomplete film projects… but I feel like someone has take a big de-motivator gun and sapped me of all of my motivation. Sigh. It’s been rough. I’ve been trying to get out of the house, and I’ve been getting small amounts of exercise at least, but it doesn’t compensate for this strange melancholy.

Still, I must push through, because to be human is to push through, you must survive in order to thrive and all of that. It’s been frustrating on the weight loss front as well, because the scale refuses to show me any losses. I’ve gained 3 darn pounds. Apparently my waist line has stayed the same, so it’s probably muscle. Which means hopefully I spiked loss is in order soon. I hope so, I want to lose more.

On the same note, last week was pretty exciting when I went shopping and discovered I could fit comfortably in a pair of size 14 jeans! 33’s! Of course it depends somewhat on the brand as I’ve inherited my family’s, how do I say it… “ample child-bearing hips”, and there’s only so much that can be done about those, but I was pretty ecstatic and understood why most of my clothes no longer fit. Where I was wearing XL’s and 1X, I’m now in medium’s and larges, and where my pants were 18’s and 20’s, I’m now down to a more ladylike 14! I guess the little things like that are what keep one’s motivation going. It doesn’t feel so large a change, since like all major changes, it was over the course of a year, rather than a rapid loss. I have lost between 60 and 65 pounds thus far (it fluctuates slightly of course). I have another 65 to go to get me down to my goal weight of 140. And here’s where it gets tough ladies and gentlemen. Here’s where the exercise portion is going to come into play. Most of that first 65 was from changing my diet, but most of this next 65 will probably have to come for exercise. Sure, there are still a couple of dietary changes I could stand to make. (I haven’t been able to give up those chips yet, and I still cheat in small ways on an approximately daily basis).

So here’s my goal for the next week – Wednesday to Wednesday. And we’ll see if this will pull me down below the 200 line for good this time! I keep getting down to that magical 199 then bouncing back up to between 200-210. This last week I’ve been keeping is between 203-204.5. So let’s try and get down to 195 and stay there! (well there and below of course).

Goals from this Wednesday to next Wednesday:

1. 3 double handful sized veggie servings a day

2. 1 serving green veggies (celery, lettuce, spinach, etc – ROUGHAGE!)

3. lots of water

4. no bread, cakes, cookies! no breadtype, baked products! I seem to have broken my bread dependency so this one should be easy as pie! This includes granola bars, muffins and all of those tasty things which I adore.

5. no potato chips. This is easy as long as they aren’t offered to me… I like ’em a little too much

6. lean protein with all carbohydrates eaten.

7. this one could be a challenge NO SUGAR. Okay, so this doesn’t just apply to the occasional real fruit gummy treat, but to sugar that is cooked with as well. At least, it needs to be used in significantly reduced quantities… hmm, not sure how I’m going to do this. Okay, we won’t take it out of cooking just yet. But no sugar objects. No candies, no gummies, no syrups, no juices, no pops. For one week.

8. no cheese. Okay so this one will make the person I live with pretty happy since I’m basically lactose intolerant. 😛

9. limit 1 sugar fruit per day (banana, orange, kiwi, melon, etc). Berries unlimited, 1 additional apple also acceptable.

10. daily cardio. For just 7 days I’m going to attempt to get some kind of cardio exercise every single days. We’ll see how it works out!

Wish me luck! 😀

I feel motivated again!

At A small loss

14 Apr

breakfast today. Szechuan green beans with tofu over vermicelli. Just sesame oil, garlic, peanuts, ginger, soy sauce, small amounts of sugar, sambal olek, shallots, and a little lime over vermicelli.

Yesterday didn’t end up so hot, I popped only a few grapes in my mouth before I went out, and ended up out most of the day and so got really hungry (failing to plan is planning to fail as i didn’t have any of my normal noms with me.)It started out okay, I grabbed a protein matcha shake made with unsweetened almond milk and loaded with greens powder, and had a green tea with lemon out at tim hortons even though I could have had something decidedly unhealthy.

For dinner I had three pieces of meat lovers pizza … loaded with Franks Red because it was at the house. Thanks Papa Murphy, why can’t you have something healthier?!

Another two pieces followed several hours later as well as a sour key and a couple of chalky candies. But I did manage to pick up some CLA and greens powder. And I guess the CLA is working, because I got a  3 lb discount today when I stepped on the scale. Or maybe it was the 30 min run/walk I went for yesterday combined with core strength training. Either way, it’s a new day and today I resolve to do better.

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healthy eats day two

13 Apr

well I conked out last night before I has a chance to do more than just twenty five push ups, but sometimes that’s, life. I made a lovely lemongrass shrimp dish with lots of veggies,

And mine was mostly lettuce, and bean sprouts, (recipe here: http://www.myrecipes.com/recipe/lemongrass-shrimp-over-rice-vermicelli-vegetables-bun-tom-nuong-xa-10000000686202/)

but sometimes I wonder your healthy it really is because of salt and sugar… in the sauce.

This, morning starts off with my leftover salmon dinner nomnom

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and hopefully I will manage to get in my exercise today. 🙂 more in a few.

proof that anything can be entertainment

13 Apr

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the evil face of… awe man I can’t even remember the context of how this happened. Its just enough to say that alan wong is both awesome and a genius. it is the wine box skeleton monster… run!

lol. my life is odd.

My Life and losses (weight)

12 Apr

My life is merely a series of bizarre occurences. At any rate I’ve decided they should all be chronicled in one place. Just cuz, why not? So. Tired of being, to put it politely, a chunky girl, I embark yet again on a weight loss journey. On top of everything else I’m doing. And why not? I want to be healthy, I want to be leaping around and able to do jumping jacks and hike up mountainsides when I’m eighty. And this seems like the best way to make that happen. Lose weight, gain strength. I want back below 200lbs. I’ve been fluctuating between 210 and 197 for some time now and I want to make this happen. 150 lbs, here I come. And I’ll be damned if I don’t tone up along the way.

So here’s my challenge. I’m fasting from bread until Monday. And I really, really love bread, so this is going to be a really tough one.

Yup. Five whole days. We’ll see if it makes a difference. I suspect it will make a huge one. So here’s what I’m doing to change.

 

1. Bread fast for five days (see what happens). No I’m not going atkins, I’m going to replace it with small portions of healthy grains that don’t contain atherosclerosis time bombs. whole grain rice pastas, brown rice, etc.

2. Matcha/green tea at least once per day after a meal. – Green tea taken within three hours of a meal is shown to aid in the digestion of fats.

3. A shot of apple cider vinegar a day. – Because, why the heck not? It’s good for ya, and helps you feel less bloated.

4. Minimum three servings of vegetables per day (with bread cut out this should not actually be a huge challenge)

5. Combining protein with my carbs (helps digestability, ask me and I’ll explain how)

6. Healthy fats, and the avoidance of unhealthy fats

7. Water with lemon in the morning (helps cleanse the old colon!)

8. Cheese fast til Monday (lactose intolerant so again should not be difficult), after Monday, if I’m really craving it 1 tbsp per day equivalent may be acceptable.

9. 10 glasses of water a day (approx amount necessary for my body weight)

10. Daily core strength exercises and 3x weekly cardio (ugh to the latter)

11. No more than one serving of fruit daily (high gi, high carb. fruit should be eaten with cinnamon because of its properties in balancing blood sugar levels)

– one additional apple, and berries are not included in the one a day fruit rule!

12. Elimination of processed and preservative laced meats. Yech anyway. When you read what goes into sandwich meat, it becomes less and less appetizing. I’ll stick to my lean grilled cuts thanks.

13. Fist sized meals. Many people believe the body can digest food about the size of a loosely closed fist at a time. Your stomach needs room for its juices to work their magic after all. So I’m going to test that with fist sized meals more often, and  fewer oversized meals.

14. Say no to junk food. None at all. Not even in minimal quantities til the end of April. No chips, no pop, no doritos, no candies, no sugary gum. Just healthy delicious spicy fuel 😀

15. healthy snacks always on standby. (I need to keep a stocked fridge and stay organized for this to work)

 

That being said, I’ve made a meal plan up for the next few days. We’ll record everything and see if it works. Here’s hoping!

Thurs night:

– lemongrass shrimp with veggies

 

Fri:

– cabbage stirfry with strips of grilled chicken

– miso soup

– homemade healthy chicken chili

– cucumber salad

 

Sat:

– chicken chili leftovers

– chopped veggies with coconut jalapeno cilantro dip

– hmd coleslaw

 

Sun:

– chicken chili leftovers

– bbq grilled zucchini sticks

– homemade chicken patties (burgers without buns for me!)

– cauliflower “rice”

 

Mon:

– Homemade Pho

– Vietnamese Lettuce Hand Rolls and Spring Rolls

 

Tues:

– Leftover Pho

– pupusas with ensalada

 

Weds:

– Homemade chocolate bran muffins

– homemade veggie and meat pizza

 

Thurs:

– miso shitake soup w/ramen

– homemade sushi (cali, tuna rolls)

 

Hopefully this will all work out. We shall see. 😀

queen fatty

12 Apr

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lunch and dinner. ensalada with tuna and black beans and a drizzle of franks red.

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breakfast. maybe the waffle isn’t the best for me but topped with plain fat free yogurt, strawberries and a banana sprinkled with cinnamon and dusted with oat bran its pretty darn tasty.

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them daily vitamins… four greens, two vitamin c two vitamin d two vitamin e and a healthy skin complex.

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this is what I ended up having for dinner. half a salmon entree from la grille half a roasted potato salmon rice and side salad all drizzled with a tiny bit of tabasco sauce nom.. and the other half is at home for me to ready when I get peckish.

the purpose of my journey is to lose weight and gain strength so I can have the energy to do all the crazy stuff I want to do and have a phenomenally interesting life full of adventure and challenge. that’s why this matters to me so much, I think. it’s, not just that I want to look bombastic on the red carpet and be a total amazonian bombshell, because lets not kid ourselves, I want that too… but I also want to do things, to enjoy life. and maybe if I post what I’m eating, I ll have to own what I put in my mouth.
sorry for typos. stupid phone. more love later.

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12 Apr

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